RELAX

FEARS

At the dark corner
I found myself
shivering with terror
uncertain of consequences.

I knew what it felt
to get turned down
to have hopeless hopes
and unanswered prayers.

It did hurt
like a nail piercing
my fragile heart
as i waited for them

Then they arrived
with their devilish smile
and lustful eyes
hooded by their cloaks.

They were dark
dark as the night
sinful as hell and
fed by the hatred.

They wreaked havoc
in every soul
draining it of feelings
and happy thoughts.

My fears-they came
to possess me
to finally engulf me
into their world.

Happy B'day Buddy!!

MONSTER: A general search in the dictionary will give a description like "A large imaginary creature that looks very ugly and frightening or they are cruel, evil" - and blah!blah!

And here i sit and think how did i even agree to call him that ?!! I mean, yeah it fits him perfectly and by that, i mean just the name =)

though i call him Mon 'Z' ter. (a single letter does makes a difference!)

and if i define him its a lot opposite to what the dictionaries have stated!

well on this page m wishing my best buddy #Ankit Karmakar aka Monzter

A VERY HAPPY B'DAY!

Dude! You rock! (much better than LP :p )

Generally I'd have gifted him a handmade greetings card with a chocolate bar ( yeah i know I'm low on funds)

but this time the stars aren't with me so the obvious rantings about him =) (pardon!)

Happy 19 to you ( i know this is girly but then whatever :p ). So you get older than me by 2-years ( and stop grinning over this) up till June arrives! Grow up and be a little more responsible and careful.
And dude please mail me your photo in sherwani ASAP!
I don't know next year tujhe dhang se wish kar paungi ya nai so iss post se kaam chala lena =)
Its been 4-WOW years since we became friends. Your company is inevitable and I have found no one else with whom I can literally talk any crap. Well thank you for bearing me! The madrista - barcelonian arguments (which you generally win -_-) , the dirty talks, height of thinking capability of your perverted mind, your super active CID vacuum and what not!
Dude YOU ARE SHAMELESS IN TRUE WAY! And i love you for that =D
keep it on because fir tera company feeka pad jaega :p Anyways  i don't want to waste much of your time :p (which I've already wasted) Read on..

I couldn't even write a poem for you (fault of my stars) so i got one from a website and it suits this particular situation so here it is.. its by @Jana C. Souder

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,

or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will

search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,

nor the future with its untold stories.

But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you,

and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,

from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,

But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,

room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend

I wish you all the happiness in your life buddy! 

And once again A VERY HAPPY B'DAY =)
*sniff* 
Your mental friend,
MONGOOJE! 

 

Silent Murder

The wind whispered
in my ears
darkness dancing
 in front of my eyes.

The light it seemed
a distant blur
in those heavily veiled skies

The painful shower
grew more intense
leaving my soul all battered

A sudden pain went through
my body
In the morn they said:
' She was murdered'

I Died A Death

I was lying there,
counting my last breath
the pain I was going through,
A turmoil in my head

I was paralyzed
and I knew not then
For help i cried, but,
it was all in vain.

The words lost in my mouth
and my lips tasted salt
I bled out the sufferings
as I counted back my faults.

The heavy silence choked me,
and I closed my eyes for the end
I swore on my death,
that i'll return with vengeance!

Why are you so frustrated about yourself?

I know. because you don't live your life, you have always lived other's and that's the reason you don't recognize yourself when you see yourself in the mirror. you want what you don't have and you don't value what you already have. you are never content, you want more! you lust for boys, for love, for popularity!attention! You DON'T love YOURSELF! and that's the reason you can't give love to anyone and they think the love they are getting from you is real. They don't know how much effort you are putting in that fake love. No one can make you understand. Unless you realize your own worth and i don't know how much time it would take. You are lost in your own confusion. that's why you always listen to music. You are an escapist! A coward! 

Am i right? I know i am..

RUNAWAY

there is that feeling when you want to run away, when you want to be alone- just you and the air nothing else.
away from the horrible talks about you, away from the rules of do,s and don'ts, away from the feeling of I-AM-FED-UP.
you want to go to a place of your own where your heart is at ease, where its free like a bird, where your mind feels a little lighter and when you find it the place is yours, solely yours!